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StEpHiE
08 July 2007 @ 01:01 am
No thank you  
i feel like everything is catching up with me. all the sorrow i've endoured the last couple of years has finally taken its toll on me. i dont really feel like doing anything. ever. but i still do stuff cuz i make myself. and i just feel guilty. for things i shouldnt. i also get these really bad feelings. they come and go as they like. its very random. it usually happens when a close friend is sadder then usual. or maybe...now its my sorrow? i dont know. i cant figure it out.  but i suppose this is life...right?
 
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StEpHiE
24 June 2007 @ 11:20 pm
long time no talk  

i havent written here in a while...well...i havent really written at all. alot has been going on and its hard to even think were to begin. well i got my first job at CVS. on the corner of 82 and pearl. its a good job and its fun.
my grandfather passed away on fathers day. exactly one week from today. i've cried pretty much everyday. he died of heart failure. and its been really hard on my moms side of the family. my uncle kevin in taking it hard cuz he's the oldest, so he's known him longer. my mom, the only girl, was closer to him then she was her mom. and my uncle brain is taking it hard cuz he was closest to him. all his grandkids are devistated, except my uncle kevins kids cuz... freaks so they dont count. and i dont even know if his greatgrand kids even know he's gone. cuz their so young and all. everyday i'm excpecting him to call or for my mom to go up to the hospital to see him cuz thats all she's done for the last 3 weeks. but the sun keeps burning and the world keeps turing. we just have to take it one step at a time.

 
 
I'm feeling a bit...: depresseddepressed
 
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StEpHiE
13 April 2007 @ 12:13 pm
so yea  
i got my computer back. something's wrong with it because of AOL so we're getting it taken off. so i dont know if i'll be using my lilarmygirl91@aol.com anymore. no one e-mails me on it anyways. we'll probably switch to yahoo or something so i can get free music cuz limewire was giving me viruses.
for some reason my dad has been trying to hang out with me. this is very weird. he woke me up this morning to ask me if i wanted to go to a mall with him, his g/f, and her kids. i dont get him.
soooooo yeah thats pretty much all.
 
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StEpHiE
24 March 2007 @ 10:06 pm
The deep thoughts of latly....  
the rain is perfect, just as it seems. you can have it when its cold, and you can have it when its warm. its the only thing  you can have in both cold and warm weather. besides the sun. and the moon.
funny thing about the moon. its almost as perfect as the rain. only rain can come any time of day. the moon is there for dreams.
funny thing about dreams. their almost like a puzzle. they tell you things that your consiouse(sp?) mind dosent know. they tell you secrets that your heart desires and things that it already knows. and sometimes a random person comes in your dreams to make them more complicated.
you wanna know whats complicated? boys. and girls. just the same. girls complicate boys and boys complicate girls. its a crazy twisted world.
but thats just the thoughts of latly. they can change anytime they want.
cuz thats how the world rolls.
 
 
I'm feeling a bit...: contemplativecontemplative
 
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StEpHiE
24 March 2007 @ 02:45 pm
No thank you  

well i havent written much. still no computer at home. its driving me crazy now.
sydney died. i miss her. everyone dose. its just so weird that she's gone. it dosent seem real.
nothing really good has happened. or worth mentioning. so i'll leave you with that.

 
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StEpHiE
11 March 2007 @ 02:36 pm
Sleepless days and hopeless nights.  
i am extremely tired at the moment so i'm going to make thing short. liz threw me a surprise birthday party. thanks. lol. it was pretty good except for the part i fell in the mud. i was pretty agitated all weekend though so i feel bad for being a bitch this morning and probably late last night. and yeah....thats about it.
 
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StEpHiE
09 March 2007 @ 07:28 pm
i think its finally time for an update  
ok so first things first. no. no computer. i'm at my dads. and even though its not as bother-sum to live in my house just watching TV it is VERY bother-sum to be in the same room as a computer that works and not be able to go on it. like at school. so all weekend i'm going to be on it.
alright so last weekend was johns birthday. he had a little sleepover. it was fun.
monday was my birthday, and even though it shouldnt bother me it still dose no one comment me on myspace for my birthday :(  it just makes me sad. i didnt have anything new except for 2 new friend requests. oh well, i got over it soon.
so my birthday presents consisted of 2 guy pj pants, soul calobour 2 and 3, a heart neckalace, and another nechlalace from reachel (thank you!)
i also read the twilight series. well just twilight and new moon. at first when liz and rachel pretty much shoved the book in my hands i didnt think i was going to like it. just because it was the 'in' thing. like you know how everyone started liking pokeymon? i wouldnt watch it cuz everyone else did. same with harry potter. i would never read the books cuz it was the 'in' thing. but after the first 3 chapters i started liking it and i couldnt put it down. same with new moon. so i finished both books in a week. i know liz or rachel will say "you shouldnt have done that cuz you wont be able to wait till the 3rd." well if i didnt finish them then i would have no time to study for OGT week. so finishing them both by thursday was my plan. it worked. so now i have forever to study.
i've even had dreams about twilight and new moon. they were kinda funny. i wont get into them.
right now, i'm starving to death. i'm going to check my VF and then go get the pizza.
 
 
I'm feeling a bit...: relievedrelieved
 
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StEpHiE
01 March 2007 @ 12:41 pm
Tall Tale Stories and Short Lies...  
so hello. the last 3 days i've been dieing in my house with no computer. its rather boring.
so yeah, no party. i can't remember if i said it in here or not. haha. but yeah.
nothing really has been happening in my life. so...i'ma go.
 
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StEpHiE
25 February 2007 @ 02:56 pm
ugg  

ok. planes change. for my b-day that is.
we won't be going to lazer x-treame. the movie will be on saturday. probably late like around 7:30. so liz you can go get your puppy. and we'll just chill at my house people can come over around 3 or so. and i'll steal a couple movies from my dads house that we can watch. and liz should bring her soul calabour 2 game. and anyone can bring any movie or game they want. 
if any one has suggestions on movies that you dont have ask me and i'll see if my dad has them cuz he has over 200 movies. so yeah. 
ugg sorry to change things on your guys.

 
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StEpHiE
24 February 2007 @ 04:20 pm
in a house of lazy bodies  
i'm the only animal awake in this house. its sad. its so quiet except for the gental breathing of my dad and the cats and the sound of my fingures pressing down on the keys when i type.
ashely, i have a favor to ask of you. if you come to my party do you think your mom or dad could help dransport kids from my house to lazer x-tream and back. thats all.
and if not then we're not going to lazer x-treame. we're just going to chill at my house till there's nothing left for us to do.
and if thats the case then liz you can go get your puppy and then when your parents drop you off show off your puppy for a while. cuz i feel bad making you miss the picking up of your puppy.
next thing, i saw The Number 23 last night. still have yet to find out if my name equals 23.
maybe i'll do it now. well no it dosent. maybe i did it wrong. who knows!
i also went out driving today. it was scary yet exciting all at the same time. and i was good. even my dad said i was good. AHHHH
ok, thats it.
 
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